Title: Empress of Truth

Gender: Female

Age: 48

Sun Sign: Leo

Chinese Sign: Metal Ox

Location: Seneca, MO

About me: 
               what does one say,about themselves that doesn't make them sound fake?? i'm not sure i know the answer but here goes anyway…..

              i'm a divorced,single mom of three beautiful and loving children,that rock my world…a “nannie” to my beautiful grand-baby “piper”,she's 3.who could have guessed that 4 people would be the most important part of one's life…… they are mine!!!!
            twenty three years ago, i never guessed that having my daughter would be the one true ,constant blessing in my life she is not only my child,but she has become  my best- friend.she is my miracle baby.. i was told i would not have children, but she proved that wrong…she is my compass… she guides me back to my path when i have lost my way.. she is my rock, when things begin to wear me down…she's my angel in disguise..    …my oldest son he is, my penance in life, probably for all the things i put my parents through,he's what i call my tester…  
he is the one who reminds me what it means to be tolerant and forgiving…..that leaves my youngest,he is my grace,he is the one, who reminds me daily that it 's easy to quit or worse hide from the world, but, it's honorable to stand and endure…..that to quit is failing yourself,and then god gave me another blessing in the shape of my grand-daughter, she is my heart, just being around her, i feel her energy, which makes me try even harder to build up mine, she's my vitality, beauty,my vein of life for my families future…she is showing me all the beautiful and wonderous things that are here, that i forgot after getting ill, things we tend to overlook as we get older due to the pace we set is too fast…in turn without even knowing it she has taught me to stop and really smell those roses……afterall. most of us wait until it is too late, and our journey here on earth is coming to an end…….

                         it is truly amazing what you can learn if you look through a child's eyes to see it…..

                                       the above, is now how i am trying to live my life……. between having an incurable disease and losing everything i had worked so hard for, i truly thought my life was at a stand still… after becoming ill i fought it for 5 years before having to leave the work-force,5 years later i am still fighting for my disability!!!! yet, i am still losing ground….for me this was very hard to except, and the more i fought the sicker i became….it was as though, god knew i was on the brink of totally giving up…. then my grand-baby was given to us, i think god thought i needed a wake-up call…..so he sent me my own little angel, and she is showing me the way…. i now try to look for the positive in things…even with my continuing battle for my disabilty…
     
        now, to be perfectly honest i have raised my children alone,which in turn, has made me a very strong person.
although, my family tells me that i was pretty strong already(now,my youngest calls me the terminator, when i am fighting to accomplish something)…. before being diagnosed with this disease, i had such a zest for life, that it even baffled me….   i never said the word quit, it just didn't exist in my vocabulary.i was determined to give my kids the life i felt they deserved, it was like a force that helped to fight so hard…. after my divorce, having to relocate,meant i had to find a new career, so i put myself through nursing school..out of a 12 yr. old marriage i took my children and their clothes, yet after a little elbow grease and some hard work i had rebuilt our lives, one day i just stopped, looked around and realized that we were doing just fine! i am sure being a very outspoken, stubborn person,who is a fighter for what i know to be right, or for my own beliefs.has helped me through this part of my life's journey. i believe in seeking out the truth and meaning of what life is suppose to be,the path i am to be on for this journey called life! i adapt if needed,but seldom vary when it comes to my beliefs, i will compromise as long as it doesn't go against anything i truly believe in.. 
                                                    in living my life i have determined that things come at us so that life, which is the artist may begin to sculpt us into the person we are suppose to be..i myself, have been resculpted, reshaped, and even totally redone in the past 10 years. especially after,being diagnosed with a rare disease. 
my illness, is so severe it has taken most everything i had. it
has destroyed me financially,causing me to lose just about everything i had worked to rebuild for my family…many times i have felt like giving up, but then i stop,hold my breath, look at the faces of my children,my grand-baby, and thoughts  of quitting  just vanish, without a fight, a struggle of any kind… i find that i am completely rejuvanated so that i may once more head out in that mystery we all have come to know as………………………..
                                                                                                       life!!!!!!!



                                    afterall,it is an amazing journey………….         

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